sigh.

I get my first unemployment cheque in the next couple days. it will be my first taste of "welfare" and I'm not proud of it.

I've been looking for work, but it's not easy in this economy. I have one promising lead, and should hear back on that next week. I had another interview last week at a wholesaler in kent, but they were only looking for outside sales. the commute would have been awful, and i don't have the personality for outside sales.

I've been trying to keep my spirits up, but I'm getting bored. I've been playing video games, and recently decided to netflix the entire BSG series and finally get around to watching it. I've been pacing myself on the job apps and searches to three a week, since I need to make three contacts a week to keep the unemployment rolling in.

in three weeks, I can go into the seattle animal shelter for an orientation and start volunteering there, working with kitties and puppies in the shelter. hoping that will offer some sort of fulfillment.

I've also been bugging miyuki about getting a baby kitty, in the hopes playing with a kitten would cheer me up during the day. she's not convinced yet.

all of this has been a mixed blessing. I was truly unhappy with my old job. but I was also really looking forward to having my own house, and knowing that we've missed a golden opportunity hurts. by the time we've recovered and will be ready to buy, the recession could be over, and the historically low interest rates will have certainly gone up. we won't be able to afford as much house, and will likely need to settle for something less than what we hoped for. that makes me sad.

I do have to wonder why all the crap has been piled up all at once, and I'm wondering what's going to fall on my head next.